18 Months

Dear sweet Grayson,

I can hardly believe it has been 18 months since I held you in my arms for the first time. I wish I could slow time down for just a little while. You are growing much too fast. AS much as it saddens me that you are already a toddler, I adore watching you explore life and find your personality, and quite a personality you have! You look up to your big sister and try doing everything she does, including jumping from things that you aren't suppose to be jumping from. When I hear un,ti, eeeeeee (one, two, three)....I have to run and find where you are lunging yourself from. (usually 2 stairs up, or off the couch into a bean bag prepared ever so nicely by Veda)

You are completely smitten by your "opie" which is your little square blankie. You have to take it with you everywhere. Each corner is loved equally and you take turns tucking a corner in your mouth. I have to sneak it away from you in order to give it a good washing, and somehow you always catch me in the act and have huge aligator tears when I throw it into the wash.

This summer we discovered that you are not a fan of the water. We have taken you swimming many times and you prefer to be on the outside of the pool running around making mommy fearful that you are going to fall in!

One of your favorite things to do is sing along with your sissy, although
I can't understand a word of it, I love to hear your tune. Your favorite song is patty cake and you get very excited when mommy sings with you. Your favorite animal is a dog and when you see them you yell and point "dog dog" and go running for them. Your vocabulary is growing everyday. You are saying new words like ball, "cewal" for cereal, "be bewwry", for blueberry, "omeel" for oatmeal, and many more!

You are becoming more of a mommy's boy than you ever have before and I absolutely adore every moment of it. You always want to know where I am and come running to me with open arms and a huge smile on your face. I am almost positive that you said "ah lo ooo" (I love you) the other day before I left for work and it made my heart skip a beat.

Grayson, I am so lucky to be your mommy and I fall in love with you more with each passing day! I love you booboo!!

Love,

Mommy

How about those pictures I promised?

Here is my little diva sportin her new do and Hollywood sunglasses. She totally rocks this look, no?

Grayson was less than impressed with swimming, can you tell?

Again, at the beach and not impressed. I happen to adore this photo though. This is the serious side of my fun loving, laid back little man.

she can sure flash a beautiful smile!I think Veda smiled like this the whole time we were on vacation! She was so sad when we left. She said with tears running down her face "mommy, I don't wanna leave our new house (condo at Boyne Mountain)I want to stay her forever" Who could blame her? Its gorgeous there!

I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice cream! What a mess! Grayson dropped his cone a billion times, in the grass nonetheless but I let him keep enjoying it....a little dirt never hurt, right?

Priceless

July? Already?

I can hardly believe that its July....and I have not posted in almost an entire month! We have been busy little bee's to say the least. I am enjoying my summer entirely, even the working part. My family took a much needed mini vacation to Northern Michigan and we just returned home today. I will share pictures on a later date.

Updates with us. I am off orientation for my job starting Sunday and I am scared, scared, scared! I know I am plenty capable of taking care of my patients and my fellow colleagues are more than willing to answer questions and lend a hand but, I worry about the what if's...like what if I miss something important, or what if someone isn't available when I have a patient in crisis? Oy, in time I am sure I won't be so worrisome but for now...... I am scared!

Veda...well she just amazed me! She is such a big girl. Her wheel is constantly turning and I just wish I had a video camera to follow her everyday. Some of the things she says are just too hilarious for a 3 yr old!

Grayson..... he is in the process of cutting 5, yes I said FIVE new teeth. He is a trooper, he has hardly complained. He is becoming more vocal and saying more words but he is not quite the talker that Veda was at this age. I think she has the tendency to do the talking for both of them! Poor guy, can't get a word in edgewise! He is also going through a mommy stage. I cannot be out of his site, he wants no one else but me. I have to say, I truly enjoy it, I know its not going to last so I am taking all I can get! I feel bad for hubby though. I know it must hurt his feelings a bit.

Hubby..... well, he is super dad while I am at work and he is loving the game of golf these days. He has many more opportunities now that I am not spending every waking moment with school work.

until next time...... (hopefully sooner than August)

Don't take life for granted......

because you never know how long you have to live it. My recent cancer scare has really opened my already open eyes to how precious life really is. Luckily, I received the phone call on Monday that my biopsy's were back and that I am cancer free. This was such a huge relief. The first thing I did was snatch up my kids and give them the biggest hug you could ever imagine. Its time to slow life down even more and enjoy each day as it comes! Thanks for the prayers!

Just dance!

That is what Veda did today! Tomorrow is her big dance recital and she is very excited! Tonight was rehearsal and she shined! At the end of the night, all the little dancers received medals that said rock star dancer. The whole way home Veda said "mommy, I got a gold medal because I am a rock" lol. I tried explaining it to her but I didn't win this one. So, yes Veda my dear.....you are a rock! (don't mind the terrible quality) It was all about miss V, not my settings for once!

What a day

Today has been full of emotions. I started my day with a routine colonoscopy that has to be done every 2 years because I have Crohns disease. The procedure went smoothly and was over quickly. Then the doctor came in and told me that there was a worrisome area. My heart sank. The first thing that came to mind is colon cancer. He said he took several biopsy's and that we will know something in about 10 days. I asked him what he thought. Not very reassuringly, he stated that he did not feel that it was cancer but that he could not be certain. He thinks its a patch of inflammation and colitis. Sigh. So here I sit, scared as hell. What if......these feeling just keep flooding my head today. What if in 6 months I am not here to care for my children? What if I leave my husband behind? My children aren't even old enough to remember me if something happens. All of these emotions break my heart. I am so scared. Colon caner takes lives unexpectedly all the time. What if I am one of them.....

Then I came home to my beautiful children and my day got better. Their smiles and laughter brought me to tears. I am going to try and think positive, although this is not an easy task for me. I hate to admit that I am a pessimist but its true. I will keep everyone posted...... here is something to end this post on a better note....pictures of my littles!
Maybe she is a pessimist too? lol

<3

Pictures, as promised

If you read my last post you know that my family took a vacation to meet the Kraft family and we were finally able to get some much needed family pictures taken. Here they are! I can't wait to get them on my walls!