What a day

Today has been full of emotions. I started my day with a routine colonoscopy that has to be done every 2 years because I have Crohns disease. The procedure went smoothly and was over quickly. Then the doctor came in and told me that there was a worrisome area. My heart sank. The first thing that came to mind is colon cancer. He said he took several biopsy's and that we will know something in about 10 days. I asked him what he thought. Not very reassuringly, he stated that he did not feel that it was cancer but that he could not be certain. He thinks its a patch of inflammation and colitis. Sigh. So here I sit, scared as hell. What if......these feeling just keep flooding my head today. What if in 6 months I am not here to care for my children? What if I leave my husband behind? My children aren't even old enough to remember me if something happens. All of these emotions break my heart. I am so scared. Colon caner takes lives unexpectedly all the time. What if I am one of them.....

Then I came home to my beautiful children and my day got better. Their smiles and laughter brought me to tears. I am going to try and think positive, although this is not an easy task for me. I hate to admit that I am a pessimist but its true. I will keep everyone posted...... here is something to end this post on a better note....pictures of my littles!
Maybe she is a pessimist too? lol

<3

Pictures, as promised

If you read my last post you know that my family took a vacation to meet the Kraft family and we were finally able to get some much needed family pictures taken. Here they are! I can't wait to get them on my walls!

Whats new?

whats not is really the question! I find it hard to stay amongst blog posts but I am eager to continue! Where to begin....

Well, when I got a job we thought we would jump right in and try and buy a new house within the year but have since decided that we will continue to make improvements on the one that we have until the economy gets better and we can sell ours and at least break even. So slowly but surely we are updating. The latest updates are taking place in our bedroom, Veda's bedroom, and the bathroom. Texture, paint, and new trim have been added and now we await the arrival of carpet in the bedrooms on Friday. Exciting.

photography is going fantastic! I love applying everything I am learning when I pick up my camera. I recently splurged and bought a Nikon D7000 and now the hubby is shooting with the D90. Its so much fun to have a hobby in common with the hubs. Our poor children are tortured with the camera! I am happy to report that I have been booking frequent sessions! You can view some of my work at http://tabithavaillantphotography@blogspot.com

We just returned home after an amazing visit with the Kraft family. We were welcomed with open arms and had a fabulous time. Kristine and I took turns photographing each others family and then we teamed up on a newborn session! Great times! My whole family was sad to leave Pennsylvania. Can't wait for their visit here this fall

Some pics to share

More pictures to follow in another post! I can't wait to share my family pictures!

15 Months already?

Is it really possible? I feel like G was just born yesterday. He is amazing. A gentle soul. Its incredible how different two children can be. Veda is my sassy, strong willed, witty little girl and Grayson is so calm and gentle. His personality is really shining. He adores his sister and shows his affection by chasing her around the house, drinking anything in her sippy, pulling her hair and yanking on her shirt until she falls to the ground in laughter and sometimes tears. However if he makes her cry he is the first one there to give her a hug and kiss. I can hardly remember what life was like without him.
Milestones? I think I mentioned in an earlier post that he was signing alot lately. Its wonderful knowing what he wants. He is signing drink, eat, please, thank you, and more. He is saying more words too, he can say sissy, mama, dada, Hi, peas(please) nigh nigh (night night),omeal (oatmeal), nana (banana) and there are more I am sure! He is in the process of mimicking animal sounds but so far everything is a cow...... moooooooooo! SO adorable!! I love you Grayson!! You are truly a blessing!

I'm here, really....I am!

Where does the time go? I find myself asking this question so often. I can hardly believe that its the first day of May already. We have been very busy around here lately. Veda with dance, me with the kids, work, and photography sessions, and Joe busy with some updates on our home. Even with all of our busyness we manage to enjoy everything family time has to offer. Easter was amazing. We enjoyed sitting back watching the kids hunt for their eggs in the morning, went to brunch with the in-laws in the afternoon and then spent hours at the park taking pictures, flying Veda's new kite, and just enjoying the peacefulness the park had to offer. Here are a couple pictures from that day! I hope to be posting more often!