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Today has been one long day. Rewind to 3am. I was working when I received the phone call that Veda had a fever, leg pain, and was hysterical. I panicked. For good reason. A friend of a friends daughter recently was experiencing lots of leg pain at the age of two. Woke up one morning and couldn't walk, she was soon diagnosed with stage 4 neuroblastoma and was given a 40% chance of survival. Veda has been complaining of leg pain often and having this story be fresh in my mind has sent me over the edge. I am a pessimist, always playing worse case scenario in my mind and I freaked. I came home and snuggled her until we both fell asleep. While laying in bed Veda said to me "mommy, when I wake up and your not here, I'm scared. I'm afraid you won't ever come back" I nearly lost it. She hugged me so tight. She is an amazing kid. I explained that mommy has to work some nights but I'm always going to come home. I have no idea why she would question my return, we have hardly spent any time away from one another. I'm glad I came home early to have that time with her. We went to the doctor today and she has an ear infection and was febrile. I voiced my concerns about her leg pain and the doctor gave her a more thorough exam and said she feels there is no reason for more testing. For now I am satisfied with that. Veda is feeling much better this evening. Here is a photo of her at bed time. She was being silly and said this was her mean grumpy face! Lol